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Murphy within us
Last year I wrote
about how Murphy from Murphy's Law was having way too much fun with
me, broken ankles, pain, promises broken and turmoils in abundances.
I realized that he left an imprint on me, a negative footprint of
misrepresentations and of soul disconnect. Now three weeks to the
anniversary of the dreaded day I broke my ankle which now has 6
screws and 2 plates in it, I realize that I have been fighting an
upheaval battle with myself and all thats around me.
My thoughts would go one-way and my emotions another, and my energy totally
left me. Looking back I realized that in the last 18 months my life has
changed totally. I was lost, lonely, unsure and trying to find my purpose
in my life and this world from which I was so disconnected. Then it all
began to change and looking back it happened all really fast. Can one
adjust so quickly to the many changes? Or do we prefer it slow and sure-footed?
I would not know what sure footed was, I have a tendency to always follow
my instincts even when I have no idea where they are leading me to or
why I am going there in the first place. I am at times envious of people
who follow a particular path each day, always knowing where they are going
and why. But I have tried that way and indeed whilst raising children
needed to follow the expectations and constancies of raising kids. However,
I find that winging it, going by my gut and intuition really suites me
better and is truer to my nature.
For instance, most people would not start a business (outside of their
own realm). I set up Cyclzone Technologies, developing a revolutionary
new Electric Motordrive System with a new partner, then fell in love.
I sold my home (three times it fell through except last one thank god).
I got a divorce, broke my ankle, received hate messages from the new loves
ex, packed up the family home of 17 years and downsized by half into 2
homes. One in Vancouver and one in Kirkland, USA. Then having moved across
the border to set up home come back here for some excess furniture only
to find the border control decided that you were enemy number one because
you are looking to set business up there that would create many jobs and
millions in revenue. Now we wait in Vancouver for the E2 visa. In the
end it was all just another visit from Mr. Murphy, or was it?
I have now taken a step back from my anger and constant pain and had a
good look at things to get perspective. I believe in the law of attraction,
every wish and desire or need goes up in to the Universe to be possessed
for you to receive. So if so much negative is happening do I clearly not
believe in myself, my spirit or my soul any more? I am sending the wrong
The Universe responds to what you ask of it, and although I had asked
for the successful outcome of the business and all that it stands for,
I became despondent when things and people were not living up to the expectations
of the dream. Now I realize if I had gone in one direction we would have
gone really wrong and all that the universe was telling me was to re-think
and redirect and keep my faith for the true reason and purpose behind
So the skies clear. I am not so emotional now, my pain (my hips due to
the ankle) is still there all the time, but I believe that it will improve
as I myself let go of what it is I cannot or should not control. I asked
to be guided and forgot to listen. I asked for help and could not see
the hand before my eyes. I believed in my mission, my purpose but grew
too emotional and to personal about it. I started to doubt, even though
I did not realize I was doing that and then that doubt crept up into the
universe for Murphy to grab hold of, and twist me around into confusion
and finally distrust.
So now from a page of clarity and reconnecting with my soul, I am letting
go of the pain, anger, anxiousness and distrust, and reacting with a positive
attitude. I am a spiritual person who is only aligned when true to spirit
and soul. I went off the cosmic tracts and got lost; I am now coming back
to life. It will take some time to realign, and constant words of encouragement
from my heart to my soul and most defiantly many positive conversations
with my head. I am not angry anymore but thankful for the interruption,
for now in my clarity I see that road would have been a dead end, and
that all the visions and ideas that were there in the beginning were there
for a reason.
Your basic foundations are always the strongest to build on if they are
built in truth and inner honesty. So let yourself out, listen to your
gut, it speaks the truth that you need to know, trust in yourself, for
your soul when listened to will never let you down, only you can do that,
you and your doubts. Trust in yourself and in the Universe, your spirit
and your instincts and just walk forward, leaving all behind that held
you back and crippled you.
Goodbye Mr. Murphy, we won't be seeing each other for a long time, if
ever again. As my sprit lifts and my peace within me returns there is
no room for you, so get out.
Open your windows, open your heart, your soul and let your laughter be
heard and your spirit fly free of negative doubts. Peace with us is peace
within the world I wish this for you all.
© Sara Towe of Vancouver Canada & of Kirkland, USA
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email: Sara at cyclezone.com
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